My mother is doing it again. She left a message a little while ago and began to tell me that she was going to miss me, but she could not control how upset she was as she broke out into tears as she spoke. And yes I can’t help that it bothers me that she misses broke into tears. She is so wrong in so many ways but it still bothers me that she is upset by her own misconceptions.
I wish I could fix what she sees and misunderstands. She was so upset that I did not stop by to say goodbye (she says). She says I simply snuck out of there on Sunday and she did the whole “I can’t believe you did that to me” thing as she was crying and leaving a voicemail to me. <sigh> How can I get her to see that the reason I had said goodbye on the 15th is because I wanted to take advantage of the fact that she was off of work and I could see her before I left.
I just can’t get her to understand anything except for her version of what she sees. Is it only ‘my’ perspective that the perspectives other people have are more apt to be changed to another way of looking at things (especially if it pertains to what someone else is thinking or doing) if only that other person would explain why it is that they are doing what they are doing? … I don’t know. All I do know is my mother hasn’t ever accepted my explanations as to why for why I do not do things. It is simply useless to explain myself, so I have (for the most part) simply stopped trying.I hope that my hope for communication with her is rejuvenated again sometime soon.
Incidentally I did call her before I left, but it didn’t help matters any.
